Since I have attained the state of Clear* in Scientology, I feel so alive, so confident, at cause in life, comfortable, calm and happy. But this was not always the case.
Prior to finding Scientology, I was on a search for truth and meaning. I had grown up in Russia and was priviledged to be a model and was acknowledged as a physically beautiful woman, touring and modelling in shows and print. But I did not feel beautiful.
I did not see beauty around me, in fact, I was so introverted that I saw very little of the world. I was uncertain and insecure of myself and I did not understand people or how to handle relationships. I knew there must be something more to life, answers to the questions that plagued me, somewhere.
Then one day a friend took me to a beautiful hotel in Hollywood which is the Church of Scientology Celebrity Centre. I was interested in the program they delivered to rid the body of the toxins that have accumulated over a lifetime, especially since I had been in Russia when the meltdown at Chernobyl occurred. But what I gained was far more than a physical handling. I attained a spiritual resurgence that I had been looking for my whole life.
Not only have I discovered for myself my true identity, the true Me, but I have gained such a deep understanding of other people and why they act as they do, their problems, upsets, their uncertainties and fears. I know that I can help them to relieve the pain and suffering of their lives and am training to be able to return the help that others have given me.
*Clear: the name of a state achieved through auditing (Dianetics counselling) or an individual who has achieved this state. A Clear is a being who no longer has his own reactive mind. A Clear is an unaberrated person and is rational in that he forms the best possible solutions he can on the data he has and from his viewpoint. The Clear has no engrams which can be restimulated to throw out the correctness of computation by entering hidden and false data.
